Chapter 1: Therapist in Flight
Elena
I crouched against the wet stone wall of the ruined chapel, Nora huddled beside me, our bodies pressed together for warmth that neither of us had to give. Wind howled through the collapsed roof, scattering ash from the soldiers' fire across the dirt floor. The flames guttered and flared, throwing grotesque shadows against crumbling walls that still bore faded images of saints I no longer believed in.
Across the fire, the escort captain passed a flask to his men. Their laughter grew louder with each drink, and their eyes—those eyes kept sliding toward us, toward Nora specifically, with the kind of hunger that had nothing to do with the meager rations they'd just finished.
I counted in my head. Sixty-three prisoners when we left Saint Crow City. Men bound for labor camps, women for... I forced the thought away. It didn't matter what we'd been sentenced to. We'd never reach the border. Disease, cold, beatings—the road had taken most of us already. Ten left now, maybe eleven. Only Nora and I among the women.
Three months ago I was Elena Veyrmont. The thought arrived unbidden, sharp as the wind cutting through my ragged clothes. House Veyrmont's eldest daughter. The girl who sent back three trays of pastries because the frosting roses weren't symmetrical enough. The girl who had marriage proposals stacked on Father's desk like cordwood.
Then Osric II took the throne. Blood-Treason Law—two words that unmade my world. Father's head on a pike. Mother's body cooling on the floor while I screamed. Lucien dragged away by soldiers, his small hand reaching for me until they struck him and he went limp.
Is he alive? The question gnawed at me every waking moment, a wound that wouldn't close. Did they kill him? Send him to the Church? Is he cold tonight, like I am?
The escort captain stood, tossing chunks of hard bread onto the ground between us and the fire—not charity, bait. His gaze locked on Nora, and I felt her body go rigid against mine.
"You want to eat?" His voice carried the blurred edges of drink. "Come here and earn it."
Nora's fingers dug into my arm. She was shaking, whether from cold or fear I couldn't tell. Probably both. This woman had given me her last mouthful of water when I'd been burning with fever. She'd taken a whip across her back when I'd stumbled during the march. I'd watched the blood seep through her clothes and known I owed her a debt I could never repay.
I won't let them touch her.
"She's sick," I said, my voice steadier than I'd expected. The words cut through the soldiers' laughter, and sudden silence fell like a stone into water. "Touch her and you'll catch it. I'll go instead."
The captain's head swiveled toward me. For a long moment he just stared, and I could see him reassessing—the matted hair, the grime, the freezing sores that mottled my cheeks and hands. Then his mouth twisted into something that might have been a smile.
"Well then." He jerked his chin toward the side room. "After you, my lady."
The mockery in those last two words made something twist in my chest, but I stood. Nora grabbed my hand, shaking her head frantically, tears cutting tracks through the dirt on her face. I squeezed her fingers once, then pulled away.
The side room had been a priest's cell once. Now it held nothing but a broken pallet and a window gap that let in knifing drafts. The captain shut the door behind us, and the sound of that latch falling was the loneliest thing I'd ever heard.
He moved toward me, hands already reaching for my clothes.
I stepped back—not a panicked scramble, but a measured retreat. I'd been watching this man for weeks. The way he favored his left leg. The hitch in his stride when the temperature dropped. The careful way he dismounted his horse, both hands gripping the saddle.
"Your right hip," I said.
His hands stopped midair.
"The old fracture. Between the joint and the lower spine." I kept my voice level, clinical, the way Mother's physician had sounded when he examined patients in our parlor—back when we'd had a parlor, and physicians, and a life that made sense. "It's been bothering you for six years, maybe seven. Gets worse every autumn. Some nights you can barely straighten up."
The captain's face darkened. He took a step back, and I saw his hand drift toward the knife at his belt. "Who told you that?"
"Nobody told me. I watched you walk." I met his eyes, willing my voice not to shake. "You favor your left leg. Your stride shortens in the cold. When you dismounted this afternoon, you grabbed the saddle with both hands. A man with a healthy hip doesn't need to do that."
"Clever tricks." His voice went flat, dangerous. "You think guessing about my leg will save you?"
One chance. If I don't make this count, he'll kill me for the insult.
"Your hip isn't the real problem." I lowered my voice until only he could hear. "The fracture damaged the nerves running down from your lower spine. You've noticed it for years—the numbness when you sit too long, the tingling in your thighs. And in bed..." I paused, watching his face flush dark red. "You can start, but you can't finish. Or you finish far too quickly. Less than a minute, if I had to guess."
The silence stretched so long I could hear my own heartbeat pounding in my ears. His fist clenched white-knuckled at his side, and I saw murder in his eyes—the raw, animal fury of a man whose deepest shame has just been dragged into the light.
He's going to kill me. He's going to wrap those hands around my throat and—
But he didn't move. Because I was right, and we both knew it.
"I can fix it," I said.
Three words. His fist loosened, just slightly.
"The nerve damage isn't permanent. It needs targeted pressure—specific points along the spine and hip—combined with herbal treatments over several weeks." I was speaking faster now, pressing my advantage while I still had one. "I was trained by the best physicians in Saint Crow City before my family fell. This isn't a trick. It's a trade."
I reached into the lining of my dress, fingers finding the small lumps I'd sewn there months ago. When I pulled them out, the firelight caught on the facets—three small diamonds, each one worth more than this man would earn in a year.
"The stones, as a deposit. My skills, as ongoing payment. In return—you don't touch me, you don't touch Nora, and you make sure we reach the border alive."
He stared at the diamonds in my palm. Then at my face. I could see the war happening behind his eyes—the urge to crush me for the humiliation warring with the desperate, fragile hope that maybe, just maybe, I was telling the truth.
Finally, he snatched the diamonds and shoved them inside his coat.
"Next settlement, you'll treat me. If you're lying—"
"I'm not." I forced myself to hold his gaze. "But I need you alive and cooperative for the treatment to work. Keeping me safe is in your best interest."
He glared at me for another long moment, then yanked the door open and shouted something crude about sores and disease. The other soldiers made disgusted noises, and moments later I heard bread hitting the ground.
When I walked back to Nora, my legs were shaking so badly I nearly fell. But I kept my face blank, my steps even, and when I sank down beside her she threw her arms around me and sobbed into my shoulder.
The bread was rock-hard and tasted like ashes. I split my piece with Nora, and we chewed in silence while the soldiers passed their flask and the fire burned low.
Mother, I thought, swallowing blood from where the bread had cut my gums, you were right. All those boring lessons about medicine and herbs and reading bodies for signs of illness—I hated every minute of it. But tonight, those boring lessons saved my life.
Nora fell asleep against me eventually, exhausted by fear and relief. I stayed awake, listening to the wind howl through the broken roof and watching the soldiers drink themselves into stupors.
Three months ago I sent back pastries because they weren't pretty enough.
Now I sat in a ruined church, swallowing bread and blood, with a dead woman's diamonds sewn into my clothes and a killer's medical care as my only shield against rape and murder.
And somewhere out there in the dark, Lucien was alone.
I will find you, I promised the night, the wind, the cold stars I could see through the gaps in the roof. I will survive this. I will find you. Whatever it takes.
