What the hell is happening?

Arabella

Christian: Did you miss me?

The words glow on my screen. My thumb hangs above the message while I nibble at my bottom lip.

Guilt gnaws at me because honestly, I had forgotten about him. Not in a cruel way. Just in the way that life keeps moving even when someone you care about is gone.

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Chapters

1. All men terrify me

2. My roommates were going to completely lose it when they saw this.

3. Meaningless kiss

4. Why does this girl make me act like such an idiot?

5. Kissing Damien, pretending to date him… what could possibly go wrong?

6. Damien! It is embarrassing! Do not read it!"

7. Like you are disappointed in me

8. What the hell was so funny?

9. That shy boy is gone. He has turned into a man

10. How could I not react this way?

11. Oh no. Is Paul walking into trouble?

12. Why are you making this so dramatic?

13. Why the hell does Elise care so much about whether Julian lives with me?

14. The pressure is unbearable.

15. My body clenches at the sight alone.

16. Why are you in my bed?

17. I thought you two were a couple

18. Does that make me a terrible person?

19. I wonder if Damien will see me that way too.

20. Do these two have a past?

21. S-stay the night?

22. Maybe I should just apologize for earlier and keep my feelings to myself tonight

23. What do you want to do after college?

24. People better watch out. I think Elise is turning into a gangster

25. ....my pulse only grew faster.

26. I am nothing like my mom

27. Are you on your period?

28. My girlfriend is very pretty.

29. What am I supposed to do?

30. What if I refuse to break up with him?

31. I am pregnant

32. Why would I ever say no to that?

33. Look at you. Corrupting your own innocence

34. I try to keep my face straight, but my lips twitch ...

35. .... you sound like my grandmother

36. I wanted to wish you luck with a kiss

37. I have a few ways to help jog your memory

38. That infuriating man!

39. Call an ambulance

40. I only want our boys to make it.

41. Let’s see what you brought inside. I am curious

42. I am glad you are coming out

43. I am furious

44. My muscles tighten around him

45. Ripped-player-pants.

46. Money is not a problem

47. You are thinking a guy my age, with no experience, cannot stay faithful

48. I am so afraid. Please, let me see her one more time.

49. Did you have another nightmare?

50. I do not apologise when I say that they deserve to rot.

51. I miss his touch

52. I undress

53. I cannot wait.

54. Out of my room!

55. Are you lonely?

56. Just one friend? That is honest of her

57. I bite my lip hard

58. Ouch. Do not tell me that

59. Maybe we could go on a date?

60. How can I ever make him love me back?

61. I am losing it

62. .... do I need to carry you again?

63. I want to take care of them

64. I cannot believe how much I want him.

65. I know exactly what this is leading to.

66. What exactly are we now?

67. Will I ever truly be ready?

68. What do you need me to do, boss?

69. The ball is entirely in her court.

70. You are so light

71. You are so tight...

72. I had no idea Adrian was moving away…

73. I will remember this, Paulina…

74. I am not sure why, but I hope it is not a big deal.

75. I do not trust her for a single second.

76. He kisses me for what feels like the billionth time

77. I am sorry for not remembering you

78. This whole thing is so weird, but I am enjoying myself.

79. I am treating you as if you are my wife

80. Have you had many other patients like me?

81. What is wrong with me?

82. Was I having an affair with Lars before the accident?

83. I only had sex with Pearl to make you jealous…

84. He wanted me to beg him to come back? That was his excuse for betraying me?

85. For the first time, my heart is completely open

86. Is everything all right?

87. And seeing you naked? I am more than okay, buddy.

88. Fucking memory loss

89. A man who stalks Anna and tries to attack her is not a man at all

90. Get your ass off me, you dick!

91. Do you really understand what I am telling you?

92. I moan and shake

93. My heart is beating hard

94. My head is full of Anna.

95. You really need to see a doctor about that. It is not normal!

96. Is that why you screamed?

97. I can tell he feels the same way

98. Did his mother not expect me to come?

99. It is not too late to join

100. With pleasure

101. Did he hurt you?

102. Do not stop kissing me...

103. He is perfect!

104. Am I really pregnant?

105. How am I ever supposed to look him in the eye after this?

106. My stupid, fucking brain.

107. Did Lionel really ask her to marry him?

108. “Deal.”

109. Once I climb onto the bed

110. Why the hell can I suddenly not stop thinking about Lionel?

111. I would never want to date a guy who’s also dating other women

112. That’s probably why she’s still a virgin

113. I’m kidding

114. First place belongs to me

115. My lips tremble slightly

116. No guy had ever touched her before.

117. And lying there in bed

118. Please don’t judge me.

119. .. how do you know I like you?

120. Very scary

121. I want to do it again

122. Am I safe?

123. ..... try to seduce Lionel into having sex with me.

124. Why did you stop?

125. I'm already getting addicted

126. I kiss her cheek

127. Your imaginary boyfriend?

128. I love this man so much that it actually hurts.

129. I would never

130. I'm going to fuck you hard against the wall.

131. Does my size scare you?

132. I bite down on my lower lip

133. You're the stalker girl who stole my brother away from me

134. Lionel presses a kiss to the top of my head

135. I'm disgusting for wanting him

136. But life is never that simple.

137. You got that poor girl pregnant?

138. Is she trying to get me killed?

139. A terrible sister.

140. I swear I'm marrying you instead

141. Your wife is pregnant?

142. You're evil.

143. Thanks for pointing out my flaws

144. ....stop rushing me!

145. It's my guilty pleasure.

146. Shall we go take that shower?

147. All my self-consciousness disappears

148. Why do I want you this much?

149. I need your c*ck

150. There's no way that was your best sex ever

151. .. my heart is beating kind of fast.

152. My heart hurts..

153. And how do you know that?

154. That's a lie

155. What did I do to deserve this?

156. Is that weird?

157. What is he even doing to me?

158. Why are you like this? Go away

159. You're getting more adorable by the second

160. I just want to go cry in bed

161. I'm really looking forward to it.

162. Stop moaning my name

163. I love you too

164. Sexy?

165. You are impossible

166. It is like we are roommates instead of husband and wife.

167. So you are the one who is secretly evil

168. What did I do?

169. I am guilty of being a bad loser

170. You are so beautiful tonight

171. You drive me insane

172. Where is your pride?

173. I want to marry you

174. Those eyes are so annoying

175. ....my eyes stuck on his round ass.

176. What are you? My bodyguard?

177. We can fuck each other after that

178. Do not be silly

179. It is a fact.

180. How could I say no to more of this?

181. I have some demands you have to meet before I agree to...

182. Do not fall for him

183. She looks worried about me.

184. You can stay with me

185. Your arrogance is so not cute.

186. MY LIFE IS OVER

187. Half naked

188. Just kill me now.

189. Pervert?

190. This is just sex.

191. She must really like how I smell

192. You are sweet

193. You are in love with him, are you not?

194. I have a man inside that hospital that I need to find.

195. I am immediately in trouble.

196. ......bastard.

197. They better not kill me

198. That was my plan

199. I will help you.

200. Alright, let us get you naked.

201. Can you hold onto the side of the tub?

202. That means a lot to hear

203. It is just weird to me

204. I am almost touching him

205. It is so embarrassing how much I like him.

206. Let us date and see where it goes.

207. Time for our first trip together.

208. You are joking, right?

209. I hate you.

210. Sure. If we even make it that far

211. When you use this vibrator, do you ever think of me?

212. He kisses my ass

213. I breathe out. "I am so... Close.."

214. I think I might be falling in love with you

215. I am still not sure if I love her

216. Like he owns me

217. I am hard as a rock

218. I love you so much that it hurts

219. I really, really love you

220. Forever.

221. Why is he acting like this?

222. Sorry, but we are not interested

223. I lower my mouth to Damien's full lips and kiss him hard.

224. People make mistakes.

225. This man is my soulmate

226. Use your imagination

227. Stop worrying....

228. You two are lucky to have found each other.

229. That will never happen.

230. My lips twitch.

231. Sexy as hell.

232. You are such a liar

233. This is the worst vacation ever.

234. Am I just a body to you?

235. I feel so useless.

236. Why do I ever trust Adrian?

237. I think Lionel is cheating on me

238. Is it just me, or do you guys feel like someone is watching us?

239. I need your c*ck

240. Are you really back in town?

241. My face is on fire....

242. Sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable

243. Tell him what you want.

244. We are definitely sharing a bed.

245. We are hopeless.

246. I wet my lips

247. Nice try

248. The Bad Boy Next Door Stole My Heart

249. Let Me Find Out How You Taste

250. I Had Never Been Perfect

251. Are you already picking out clothes for tomorrow?

252. Asshole.

253. sperm is high in prote...

254. Is that the guy who asked you out last year?

255. Last minute

256. Making me look stupid.

257. I started praying for that bell to ring.

258. Suck or swirl

259. Loss, love, hope

260. Wonderful.

261. This is strange

262. Ignore my chest hurting

263. Nobody's going to answer them...

264. Love was not real. Forever was a lie.

265. Give me another sign

266. Here is some advice, princess.

267. I did not look back.

268. hat gossip got to you faster than usual.

269. It'll be our little secret.

270. I needed something to distract myself.

271. My confused eyes met his

272. Is everything all right?

273. Are you really that upset about the kiss?

274. Enough of this nonsense

275. why are you making me feel this way?

276. I wasn't talking to you

277. That's exactly what happened

278. Lock the door next time

279. I am trying to apologise.

280. Try smiling occasionally

281. What do you want?

282. I need him to be chasing after me

283. See you around, neighbour

284. Open up for me, baby.

285. See you later, my sugar plum!

286. He's my step-brother.

287. You look even prettier .....

288. This had to be a mistake.

289. You are a bloody wanker

290. Today is full of surprises

291. Wonder who the guy is?

292. Why was he coming back now?

293. I cross my heart and hope to die.

294. Swearing at me won't do you any good, boy

295. You don't always have to act like such a jerk.

296. You really are something else, Bella.

297. Why could I never keep my mouth shut?

298. Or maybe I was wrong

299. Tasting you. Starts now

300. Be a good girl and stay still while I feast on you.

301. Did you have to be carved so beautifully?

302. Love was an illusion

303. I'm not done yet

304. His command sent me over the edge again

305. Tasted me too.

306. Sometimes I wonder how she even....hmm

307. Where the hell was that thing anyway?

308. Mind your own damn business

309. Stay away from that guy

310. What was going on with me?

311. So why couldn't I stop?

312. My conscience was right.

313. He was dangerous.