Chapter 115 I want what you want... Just not yet!
Bethel's POV
I pushed past him into the kitchen, needing to move, needing something concrete to do with the panic currently building fast in my chest, my hands already restless with the specific, useless energy of a body that wants to act but has nowhere productive to direct it.
My phone was alrea...
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Chapters
1. Chapter 1 Nothing but hate.
2. Chapter 2 Hate is a mild word.
3. Chapter 3 An odd obsession with bet
4. Chapter 4 Careful Lemaire.
5. Chapter 5 Losing to my nemesis.
6. Chapter 6 A bet is still a bet, darling.
7. Chapter 7 Killed by his own hands.
8. Chapter 8 He has plans already.
9. Chapter 9 This kidnapping thing.
10. Chapter 10 The real danger...
11. Chapter 11 A thin line between hurt and truth.
12. Chapter 12 A bet I don't intend to lose.
13. Chapter 13 You still owe me a bet.
14. Chapter 14 The thought of him pulling away.
15. Chapter 15 Sick memories.
16. Chapter 16 What does this mean for me?
17. Chapter 17 The kiss.
18. Chapter 18 A different type of lonely.
19. Chapter 19 Drunk text(s)
20. Chapter 20 The woman he hugged.
21. Chapter 21 Misjudged closeness.
22. Chapter 22 One problem at a time.
23. Chapter 23 What are you doing here?
24. Chapter 24 The house that holds memories.
25. Chapter 25 A house that feels like home.
26. Chapter 26 Unspoken tension.
27. Chapter 27 Just like old times.
28. Chapter 28 I was the happiest with him too.
29. Chapter 29 I watched you fall apart once.
30. Chapter 30 I didn't know the answer myself.
31. Chapter 31 The choice I'd already made.
32. Chapter 32 Pulse Athletics Campaign.
33. Chapter 33 How convenient...
34. Chapter 34 An awkward proximity.
35. Chapter 35 The lie I must believe.
36. Chapter 36 Anything for my mind not to wander.
37. Chapter 37 It's just... Competitive instincts.
38. Chapter 38 Everything with him feels startlingly easy.
39. Chapter 39 Spectators and Speculations.
40. Chapter 40 Pressed Play.
41. Chapter 41 Charity Game.
42. Chapter 42 Trust me, I got you.
43. Chapter 43 Would it really be an assumption though?
44. Chapter 44 It's just work though... Right?
45. Chapter 45 I Just wanted Bethel.
46. Chapter 46 Familiar Rhythm.
47. Chapter 47 I missed us.
48. Chapter 48 Fighting a Ghost.
49. Chapter 49 I need you to back off.
50. Chapter 50 Why are you doing this?
51. Chapter 51 The truest three words.
52. Chapter 52 Because I never stopped.
53. Chapter 53 The second confrontation!
54. Chapter 54 It has me written all over it.
55. Chapter 55 There's no pretending after this.
56. Chapter 56 Lost in my space and thoughts.
57. Chapter 57 I'll live.
58. Chapter 58 The other side of the family.
59. Chapter 59 Something I want longer than I'm willing to admit.
60. Chapter 60 The only person I actually want to talk to.
61. Chapter 61 A tiring stretch.
62. Chapter 62 He's not a child, Julian.
63. Chapter 63 We need to talk.
64. Chapter 64 Beyond this.
65. Chapter 65 Patience... The only thing I can hold on to.
66. Chapter 66 The Ravenberg Game.
67. Chapter 67 I'm working on it.
68. Chapter 68 Two days since the careful conversation by the pond.
69. Chapter 69 Something worth keeping safe.
70. Chapter 70 Fragmented dreams.
71. Chapter 71 Company of my own thoughts.
72. Chapter 72 "Tired" isn't going to cut it.
73. Chapter 73 Pulse Athletics Charity Gala.
74. Chapter 74 Boundaries and distance.
75. Chapter 75 A little room to breathe.
76. Chapter 76 The weight of his silence.
77. Chapter 77 A reasonable doubt.
78. Chapter 78 Ninety minutes of hockey.
79. Chapter 79 As I walked away.
80. Chapter 80 I don't know what what I want.
81. Chapter 81 Pulse Rivalry Campaign.
82. Chapter 82 This thing between us.
83. Chapter 83 Behind the rolled up glass.
84. Chapter 84 Old memories die hard.
85. Chapter 85 Promised patience.
86. Chapter 86 In my head.
87. Chapter 87 Absorbing everything.
88. Chapter 88 An emotion called fear.
89. Chapter 89 Last minute reconsideration.
90. Chapter 90 And now...??
91. Chapter 91 Quieter corner.
92. Chapter 92 Creeping feeling.
93. Chapter 93 Come home with me.
94. Chapter 94 Drunk sex.
95. Chapter 95 The reality of what happened.
96. Chapter 96 Empty.
97. Chapter 97 I owed him something.
98. Chapter 98 I mean everything I said.
99. Chapter 99 Like a tidal wave.
100. Chapter 100 Alone in my apartment.
101. Chapter 101 Pending tension. (The meeting...)
102. Chapter 102 On full blast.
103. Chapter 103 A stranger in my own world.
104. Chapter 104 The weight of decision making.
105. Chapter 105 Just practical.
106. Chapter 106 Calming silence.
107. Chapter 107 An awkward morning.
108. Chapter 108 Complicated Awareness.
109. Chapter 109 Slowly Aligning.
110. Chapter 110 Unusual Alignment.
111. Chapter 111 Jinx!
112. Chapter 112 Two Silhouette's.
113. Chapter 113 What do you want to do?
114. Chapter 114 Further Damage.
115. Chapter 115 I want what you want... Just not yet!
116. Chapter 116 Is it true?
117. Chapter 117 I think I'm going to be.
118. Chapter 118 Like something we need to hide.
119. Chapter 119 Masking the tension.
120. Chapter 120 Looming closer.
121. Chapter 121 Bearable enough to set down for a little while.
122. Chapter 122 Complicated.
123. Chapter 123 Shared Damage.
124. Chapter 124 Kitchen Conversation.
125. Chapter 125 uncomfortable Lie.
126. Chapter 126 Uneasiness.
127. Chapter 127 Clash between past and present.
128. Chapter 128 Phone call from the past.
129. Chapter 129 Levied League.
130. Chapter 130 Fueled intensity.
131. Chapter 131 Was it all about protecting bethel?
132. Chapter 132 An obvious trigger.
133. Chapter 133 Vulnerability underneath.
134. Chapter 134 FATHER- A very distant figure.
135. Chapter 135 Misnamed Emotion(s)
136. Chapter 136 Small mercies.
137. Chapter 137 Quiet of my own.
138. Chapter 138 Complicated Stretch.
139. Chapter 139 A fragile, still-forming thing.
140. Chapter 140 Team Ritual.
141. Chapter 141 You vs Me.
142. Chapter 142 I'd needed this badly.
143. Chapter 143 Solace.
144. Chapter 144 All about YOU.
145. Chapter 145 Significant Victory.
146. Chapter 146 Something like hope.
147. Chapter 147 Something closer to brothers.
148. Chapter 148 Carrying me forward.
149. Chapter 149 Loudest in the room.
150. Chapter 150 I couldn't have done it without you.
151. Chapter 151 I'm so proud of you.
152. Chapter 152 I LOVE YOU.
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